Freaking Mad Part 2

Oh God ,

Why can't I have a peaceful life without anyone forcing me to do something for them? :|
Stop whining .Stop complaining that you can't do it .

But above all ,I hate it that I get to hold myself .Why is it so freaking hard to control my anger towards everyone ? Why am I such a snobbish and childish and bla bla bla....
Err I don't what's the point of all the saying T_T

Wtv .

p/s : I hate it that I was crying so hard because of someone who don't even give me a chance to   be 'someone special' :( I really felt so left out 

Hopeless me :|

Freaking Mad

THIS IS BAD !

I'm freaking mad and unable to control myself .I just cursed a lot .I better shut myself before I do something beyond my control

This is so not me .I have lost the real me long long time ago :( *sigh* I feel sorry for my parents as they NEVER taught me to curse .That's why I try my best to control myself especially in front of the public.

But today I just made an exception .I'm terribly mad. In the end I ended up crying until no more tears left or so I say. I'm so pissed off with them. I mean what the heck man ?! How can they do something so disgusting like that. They take things lightly. They keep on hiding something which make me more suspicious on whatever they did .Why can't they just be honest ? Is it the hardest things they have to do? Seriously,just get out of my sight .

Whatever you guys do right now can be so annoying.

As for now,I will avoid them for a couple of days so that I can cool down a little bit.

Anyway I feel groggy and sleepy due to crying so hard .My eyes keep on narrowing .I forces myself to open my eyes widely but I just can't .My bed have been calling for me too.

Gotta sleep .Cool down .Refresh myself .Think deeply. Restart the new me (better version of me). Stop cursing. Stop being & act like an immature person .

Best of luck.
Bye .

A few sad things in a row....

I google this photo.Imagined I was in the examination hall

Hey .So a few days ago ,hmm last friday to be exact,I just got to know my exam result. I was startled and a bit sad looking at it.I'm not sure if did it pretty good or bad .I didn't put lots of efforts from the beginning of the semester .Even when the exam was just around the corner,I never took it seriously .My friends surely work hard enough and they deserved it, a flying colors result .While me ,I'm just an average girl with no A but no fail :\ Hehh I should be grateful for what I have .I don't deserved more than that .Anyway I heard that lots of students who fail even 1 subject will be expelled from the institution .Poor them .But they still can take the supplementary test .

ps : my roomates will leave me soon :( 

K stop feeling sad .Look on the bright side .Think positive. Pray hard .Work hard from now on .Learn from mistake .Wish me luck

in b4 : ASIAN - A

Boredom Syndrome

I'm bored to death right know .Oh I'm starving as well. Well at least I can find something to eat .Bored ? there's nothing can entertain me right now. Erghh T_T ....I really want to hangout with my friends or go for a holiday with my beloved family but it seems like everyone are way too busy with their commitment (work or etc) .Okay I understand that .I hope someday we will have a spare time for ourselves .Family bond and friendship are really matters to me .

This is exactly how I looks when I am freaking bored

Hey ,maybe I can watch running man and laughing out loud like crazy.Hmmm okay,I think that will do for now .Then what ? eat junk food while reading manga/anime .I know eating junk food is not healthy but I don't consume it every day .

I just like the way that cat made that kind of face

Gotta go .Lunch .Running-man-ing .Manga/Anime

See ya

Bye

Bad dream

Last night I had a really weird+bad dream about my friend .It's almost as if real :O ohh my .I never thought that she will appeared in my dream .What's the meaning of these ? it's not like I miss her or anything .Is it because I slept earlier yesterday .Man I was so so tired .I got tired easily these days.

Anyway,in my dream ,someone told me (I don't remember who told me because my vision was blurred) that she,miss s died .I startled and don't know what to do & how to react .I don't know she died due to what. I think she was sicked .Then ,I informed all of my friends and my ex-schoolmates about this .I think I over-reacted in my dream T_T

When I was a kid,I always wanted to fly freely like birds in the sky. I once dreamed I'm flying and that was one of the best dream I ever had unlike nowadays,bad dream almost every week .Less chance for a good dream to take over.

Wish me luck again next time .

Bye

Almost heading to the end of year 2012

Second blog .First entry .Wohooo .

LOL to be frank I don't know why I should be happy about it. Actually I have a blog before this but I deleted it because I've been abandoned the blog for quite a while.OK I felt quite regretted deleting my blog.Now I have to create another new one *long sigh*.

I have various reasons why I do so :

• Busy.I was facing a big examination back then,therefore I need to focus.
• Lost interest in blogging.
• Found new hobby.Yippiee
• Lack of enthusiasm due to personal problem or perhaps no idea on what to write in here

Hehh I thought there were so many reasons I was going to write but it doesn't matter.Anyway let me introduce myself,a very short lame intro about me.

I am Shadow.Live nowhere on earth.Love to eat a lot.

That's all for the first entry.Not long enough,a short post indeed .Less is more isn't it?
But I can't guarantee I can write as short as my first entry in the near future.

Bye.